I am a Phoenix

I finally got my phoenix tattoo this weekend. It came out wonderful. The artist that did it was Micheal at Inferno Ink here in Lafayette. He was amazing as well, not only cute but sweet, funny and very patience with my twitching toes. I can say that it was much more painful then my wrist, which I intend to go see him to have it touched up.

The Phoenix is a very special representation of my personality. Each time she is faced with death she rises from the ashes stronger, and wiser then before. Just as I have, obviously I haven't literally died but so far I've experienced times where either i was close or a symbolic death has occurred. And each time I've survived and have become a better person from it.

Good Luck Charms

We have a new pet, a white crawfish. My dad found it while running traps in his pond. Its a pretty cool pet to have I'm hearing they are kinda rare. Also, that the white ones are good luck and the blue are bad but i though the blue were good cause shortly after we got him i got divorced.. which is pretty good as far as I'm concerned.

Painful Memories

The past week has been extremely difficult, mentally and emotionally. My mind has been wondering around with a shovel and digging up buried memories. Things long since forgotten. Wounds that have scabbed over, but never healed.
I'm remembering the way you made me cry and why.
I'm remembering the hurt and shame i felt and why.
I'm remembering lying in bed in pain.
I realize why i resented and despised you.
I realize why i stopped loving you.
I realize why i hate you.

One simple word comes to mind...
Karma

Thoughts on Jesus

When it comes to religion, I am not mainstream and by that I mean I choose to not follow Christianity. My beliefs are far more spiritual and include a lovely compilation of various ideas and concepts. Because of this my children are not baptised (which my mother hates and reminds me often.) and have had no formal religious education. Simply me sharing my ideas and beliefs. With Easter right around the corner my daughter asked what Good Friday was all about. So I was explaining that it is a christian holiday that marks the day Jesus was killed and that 3 days later on Sunday he rose. My innocent child turned to me in absolute disgust and said he rose from the dead, like a zombie.

In all my years, and as completely twisted as my mind is, I have never imagined comparing Jesus to a zombie..