I foolishly believed that the worst part of getting divorced was being alone, a single mom with two kids. However I'm quickly finding out i was wrong. It is not scary to be single again, actually it's kinda fun. Single mom well that's proving to be a bit harder.
The worst, most difficult and scariest part is the legal aspects and that is probably due to a few reasons. The first is that i don't understand lawyer-speak, which makes it hard to communicate with these people. Next is that I'm pretty much helpless. All i can do is complain to the lawyer and he does his fancy lawyer-speak that i again don't understand and i wait and wait and then wait a little longer. the last and biggest is the fact that my ex is on the other end causing almost as many problems for me now than he did when we were together. The only difference is that he's not on my couch being an ass he's on someone else's.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Monday, August 25, 2008
Numbers
Numbers, simple little symbols that we use to define ourselves. We are valued by the amount of zeros in our pay checks, rated by credit scores, tracked by our social security numbers, we live our days watching the clock. And our lives beginning and endings are marked by years.
As children we anxiously wait for the years to pass so that we may reach those magical ages, 16 to drive, 18 to vote, 21 to drink; the freedom that comes from reaching those numbers. but they are just numbers. And i choose not to give a number power over me. I choose not to be restricted or limited by these numbers.
As children we anxiously wait for the years to pass so that we may reach those magical ages, 16 to drive, 18 to vote, 21 to drink; the freedom that comes from reaching those numbers. but they are just numbers. And i choose not to give a number power over me. I choose not to be restricted or limited by these numbers.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Blogging Virgin (my first time please be gentle)
So, here I am for the first time putting myself on virtual paper for all the cyber world to see.
My life recently has been anything but normal. I'll need to give a brief recap of the past few years just to catch you up on the drama that is my life.
Three years ago, 8/29/05 my home and everything in it washed away along with almost everyone else who lived in the New Orleans area. 15 feet of water filled my much-loved little home in Arabi, LA. We (my husband, parents and daughter) did not move back to St. Bernard. We took up residence in a small town just outside of Lafayette.
Let's jump about 2 years, so now in the fall of 2007 and I am about 6 months pregnant with our second baby. A time in my life that should have been joyous was ruined by the admission of my husband that he wanted a divorce and later he confessed to having an affair. Obviously at the time I was completely devastated. How would I survive alone with two children? Could I make it alone? There were so many questions and so many fears, the biggest was the uncertainty of the future.
After a year of adjustment, I'm doing very well. Having him out of my life and off of my sofa was the best thing that could have ever happened for me. I realize now that I had not truly been happy while I was with him and now i have the ability to discover what will and believe me I'm actively looking.
I've said this line many times in the past few years but here it is again (for you this time) If you had asked me three years ago if I ever imagined I would be divorced, with two children, living in a small country town. I would have told you you'd lost your mind. Not me it would never happen to me. No divorce we're fine, no more kids we're good with 1 and I'm not moving anywhere.
Just proves that there are powers greater out there somewhere and they will do with you as they please, so don't fight them. You may not understand but in time you will get what you deserve. Just pray you have enough karma points that you'll be rewarded and not at the receiving end of the karmic bitch slap.
My life recently has been anything but normal. I'll need to give a brief recap of the past few years just to catch you up on the drama that is my life.
Three years ago, 8/29/05 my home and everything in it washed away along with almost everyone else who lived in the New Orleans area. 15 feet of water filled my much-loved little home in Arabi, LA. We (my husband, parents and daughter) did not move back to St. Bernard. We took up residence in a small town just outside of Lafayette.
Let's jump about 2 years, so now in the fall of 2007 and I am about 6 months pregnant with our second baby. A time in my life that should have been joyous was ruined by the admission of my husband that he wanted a divorce and later he confessed to having an affair. Obviously at the time I was completely devastated. How would I survive alone with two children? Could I make it alone? There were so many questions and so many fears, the biggest was the uncertainty of the future.
After a year of adjustment, I'm doing very well. Having him out of my life and off of my sofa was the best thing that could have ever happened for me. I realize now that I had not truly been happy while I was with him and now i have the ability to discover what will and believe me I'm actively looking.
I've said this line many times in the past few years but here it is again (for you this time) If you had asked me three years ago if I ever imagined I would be divorced, with two children, living in a small country town. I would have told you you'd lost your mind. Not me it would never happen to me. No divorce we're fine, no more kids we're good with 1 and I'm not moving anywhere.
Just proves that there are powers greater out there somewhere and they will do with you as they please, so don't fight them. You may not understand but in time you will get what you deserve. Just pray you have enough karma points that you'll be rewarded and not at the receiving end of the karmic bitch slap.
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